I've decided to write out the details of my recent medical experience of becoming a sepsis survivor. I'm going to be sharing a lot of details. I don't know if anyone will want to read this, but these blog posts will be more for me. It will be a way for me to work through everything that happened, share my experience, and keep it for future reference. When I go through something traumatic, writing about it helps me. And having it written down where I can go back and relive it for a moment helps me too. It's a way to release and find closure. My story is long, especially if I include a lot of Continue Reading
When You Don’t Feel Loved
I'm a woman. In case you didn't know. I've been learning a lot about myself as a woman lately. Things that I knew deep down about myself, but I didn't realize I am that way because of the very fact that I am woman. While reading The Language of Love and Respect by Dr. Emerson Eggerichs I learned that I need love. I've always longed for love, for the feeling of being loved. But now I realize it's a part of the nature of woman. We all want to feel loved. When reading The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman I learned that we all (men and women) have love tanks in a sense. Sometimes, our Continue Reading
On Letting Go & Having Empty Hands
The other day I had a dream I was with an older couple -- family friends of ours -- in a parking lot. This couple had to make a list of things they would give up, and then they were really letting go of things things, really living without them. Then the dream made a turn toward ice cream ... but that's not the point. I began thinking about this list of things to give up in my half asleep/half awake state. What would I be willing to write on my list? What could I live without? There are several things I would have trouble giving up and letting go. Cable - how would I watch my favorite Continue Reading
When God Doesn’t Answer
Heartbreak. Prison. Job interview. Travel. Safety. Future. Homework. Stress. Health. Forgiveness. Salvation. Healing. Comfort. Peace. All of these things have been in my prayers lately. I feel like my prayer list has been full to the brim recently. Do you ever feel like that? I've been praying for friends, family, acquaintances, and even strangers. I keep a prayer request list in my head. Sometimes, when it gets extra full I journal my prayers. Sometimes I pray with my husband. Sometimes I pray alone. I pray in the shower, in the car, while I work out, before bed, or in the Continue Reading
Prove It: Is Your Faith Real?
What are you doing to prove your faith? It's not a question we often hear, because we believe we do not need to prove our faith. God knows our hearts, and our actions aren't what get us to Heaven. We are not saved by our deeds. We are saved by accepting the gift of salvation that God offers us. We are saved by believing in God and Jesus, believing Jesus died to save us. And because He suffered, died and visited Hell for us, we do not have to earn our place in Heaven. We do not have to do anything to be saved. Because I believe all of that, I haven't been asking myself the question, Continue Reading