This is my story of healing -- of the miracle God worked in my life. My reason for writing it out here and sharing it rather than keeping it in a private journal is in hopes of someone who may be going through a similar situation to know they aren't alone. I also believe I am a living testimony to God's healing power, and I want to share my story of healing so He can get all the glory. This story proves that prayer is powerful. That He does indeed hear us when we call out, and He cares. Because this story is long, I've split it up into multiple blog posts. Be sure to start from the beginning Continue Reading
Sepsis Survivor: My Story of Healing (Part II)
Writing my survivor story out is therapeutic for me. It's a way to release and find closure, and having it written out means I can come back to it later and relive it if I need to. I find that when I go through something traumatic, sometimes I need to relive it -- to remember it happened and it makes me who I am. I often go back and read my miscarriage story on the anniversary of it. My reason for writing it out here and sharing it rather than keeping it in a private journal is in hopes of someone who may be going through a similar situation to know they aren't alone. I also believe I am a Continue Reading
Sepsis Survivor: My Story of Healing (Part I)
I've decided to write out the details of my recent medical experience of becoming a sepsis survivor. I'm going to be sharing a lot of details. I don't know if anyone will want to read this, but these blog posts will be more for me. It will be a way for me to work through everything that happened, share my experience, and keep it for future reference. When I go through something traumatic, writing about it helps me. And having it written down where I can go back and relive it for a moment helps me too. It's a way to release and find closure. My story is long, especially if I include a lot of Continue Reading
Recovery Items for a Vaginal Tear
As you may know if you read my daughter's birth story, after delivering her I found out that I had a fourth-degree vaginal tear that went all the way through my rectum. I know, sounds pretty, right? Pretty gruesome and painful -- that's for sure! Thanks to my epidural, I didn't feel the tear happen at all. Thank the Lord Almighty! But the recovery from such a vaginal tear is not fun. I was given a two-month recovery time, which feels like forever! I was given plenty of pain medication in the hospital, and they sent me home with quite a bit too. That has been very helpful, but pain medicine Continue Reading
To the Woman Struggling in Her Marriage
I've recently heard or met several women who are struggling in their marriages. Women who have been hurt, painfully so, by their husbands -- the very men they trusted enough to vow a lifetime to. These women are brokenhearted, confused, and wondering what's to come. Are you one of these women? What you might not know is that I was one of these women. I don't talk about it openly here on this blog, or even in my personal life, because I'm still healing. Because it's a private, personal, painful story. Maybe someday I'll write a book about the struggles our marriage has had to overcome, but Continue Reading
The Book that Helped Me Heal After my Miscarriage
I sat there scrolling through Pinterest after searching "miscarriage." I wanted to see all the quotes, read the stories of others', and get any tips and advice I could. I had no idea how to get through and heal from such a painful time, such a deep loss, so I was grasping for anything and everything that could help. I came across a book on Pinterest, and I ordered it. I read that book during my first weeks of having a natural miscarriage. But you know what, it didn't really help. I didn't find it all that comforting or healing. It was a decent book, but I wouldn't recommend it to a Continue Reading
Finding Your Selah (+Giveaway)
Rush. Rush. Rush. Sometimes, I feel like that's all I do. I rush around trying to mark things off my to-do list. I rush to the grocery store. I rush to clean the house before the guests arrive. I rush my husband to do the things I put on his honey-do list. I rush through my morning Bible time. Rush. Rush. Rush. The thing about rushing around is you are always distracted. Constantly on the go, always moving. Always typing, in my case. You don't have time to think. Or feel. Sometimes, you don't have time to breathe. I partnered with DaySpring to receive the monthly devotional kits, and as I Continue Reading
Healing Music: Songs for Miscarriage Survivors
Music can be healing for many people. Certain songs can be easily qualified as healing music. As I've been processing the loss of our baby, music has been incredibly helpful. A friend of mine even sent me a card with an iTunes gift card inside. She understands how healing music can be. I've been collecting songs for a long time now, and I've added more in the past few weeks. I wanted to share this list of healing music -- songs for miscarriage survivors, or really anyone experiencing loss or heartache. Learn How Healing Music Can Be With These Songs Check out these songs and add them Continue Reading
When You Are Drowning
When I wrote this post, I told you I was right in the midst of it -- in the hard, in the valley. Little did I know I still had farther to fall. I was honest and shared with you that I was trying not to drown. I felt like the waves kept breaking over me, and I was weak from trying to hold my head above the water. I told you I was praying that I would become a stronger swimmer. And I encouraged you that we will not drown and we will survive. I told you we would be stronger. But what happens if in the midst of that prayer to be a stronger swimmer, a tsunami hits? What if you feel more Continue Reading
A New Season: A Glimpse into my Heart Break
I've been sharing with you the things I wrote during the worst eight months of my life -- when the man who is now my husband and I had broken up. My heart was broken (as was his), we weren't talking, and the only things I could do to lessen the pain was to pray and to write. With Valentine's Day coming up, I know there are others out there who are hurting with the thoughts of hearts and love. For those people, I'm sharing these writings to hopefully spread some sunshine during such a dark time. This is the fourth installment of A Glimpse into my Heart Break. Be sure to read the other Continue Reading
Healing Playlist: Songs to Heal Your Heart
With Valentine's Day on its way and getting closer and closer, I was really feeling for those out there who just aren't feeling the love this month. I decided to share my writings from when I was going through my own break up and dealing with my own heart break, as a way to, hopefully, spread some sunshine for those who are hurting. You are not alone. You will get through this. This is the third installment of A Glimpse into my Heart Break. I think music speaks straight to our hearts a lot of the time. So when your heart needs healing or uplifting or maybe it needs the freedom to Continue Reading
Word of the Year: 2013
For the past couple years, I have been choosing a word to represent my new year rather than making resolutions. Last year, I chose the word "purpose" for 2012. I wanted to put purpose into everything I did. Now looking back on 2012, I believe my word was actually "healing." I spent most of that year being healed by God, having my heart mended. And once I was healed, I received great restoration and joy. For 2013, I've pondered over several words such as change, adventure, joy and journey. All of which seem to describe what 2013 will probably be filled with. But I decided not to go with any Continue Reading