In January of this year, I began to miscarry our first child -- our angel baby. Tomorrow is what would have been my due date. I can't help but think of what this month would have been like. Preparing the nursery and making sure everything is just right. Packing a hospital bag. The fear and happiness of knowing baby is coming. Going to the hospital. Getting to hold our first child. Seeing the look on my husband's face as he realizes he is a dad. Watching family members hold our precious little one. So many would-have-beens. This is my letter to our baby in Heaven, our child who we lovingly Continue Reading
After Miscarriage: Ways to Remember Baby
After having a miscarriage, at first I thought I could pretend that I was never pregnant at all. Perhaps, if I could make myself believe that there never even was a baby then the loss wouldn't be so hard. I could quickly move on and be happy again. That idea didn't last long. As the reality set in, and my grief began, I knew there was no way I could ever forget. Would it be easier to forget it all? Yes. But that is most definitely not the best option. Instead, I know that I need to remember. I need to grieve the loss so I can heal and move forward. But even in moving forward, I don't Continue Reading